We had a lovely Solstice, a low-key but powerful ritual, and it’s back to work. Though I always have that end-of-the-year drive to plan out for next year. So one of the things I’ll be doing is to figure out how to make 2016 far better than 2015 has been. And that will involve a number of major changes, most of which I can’t talk about yet because I’m not sure how they’ll play out. This year’s been a bitch, to be honest, hard on both of us–Sam in looking for work after getting laid off, me in dealing with changes in the publishing industry and facing even more coming up. I don’t do change well, unless it’s good change, and even then–like a cat–I am nervous throughout the transitions. I’m a Capricorn (Sun, Jupiter, and Saturn all in it), with my moon and Mercury in Aquarius and Cancer as a Rising Sign. Add Venus in Pisces and you get this internal battle on a continual basis–TRADITION WE MUST HAVE TRADITION AND ORDER….BUT! LOOK TO THE FUTURE AND TRY NEW THINGS–BREAK BARRIERS–JUMP OFF THE CLIFF!…ABOVE ALL DEFEND THE HOME FRONT!…BUT IDEALS, WHAT ABOUT THE IDEAL?
Yeah, a constant swirl of the desire to break new boundaries and the ability to do it while wondering why the fuck I’m out on the tightrope without a safety net. My life, right there. So this year, with all the changes that have gone on (you’ve heard only a fraction of them), it’s been tough.
We often get asked whether we celebrate Christmas too. Well, no. We don’t. For us, it’s just a day when all the stores are closed and when there will be no business anywhere, so we keep close to home, focus on what we want to or need to, and quite often, it’s a day when I start taking down the decorations since they’ve been up a month and Yule was not quite a week ago. I’m leaving a lot of the lights up till the new year this year, but I have a feeling I’ll be ready to take down the trees–as much as I love them–early next week.
Anyway, I hope your holidays were wonderful, and if not–at least bearable. Some days, that’s the best we can hope for, to be honest. I’m off to make my latte and get the day started and watch Two Towers again. Time to battle on!