I’ve been in an isolated space for the past couple months, by choice, and right now I’m grateful. As I’ve said in some of my vlogs as of late, from last July on, life was difficult. A lot happened, a lot of loss, a lot of irritation and feeling pushed into places I really didn’t want to be and not setting proper boundaries, a lot of disappointment. So, in the past couple months, I decided to just pull inward, focus on myself, my immediate family (Sam and the cats), and my health and career.
Through doing so, I’ve realized that I needed this. I have stopped listening to every other voice who has an opinion of what I should be doing/how I should do it–except for my coach, who has really helped me navigate the past year without having a total breakdown. I’ve stopped looking outside for answers to questions I’ve had and started reformulating my own answers. I’ve started working more formal magick again instead of just glancing over an aspect to life that’s incredibly important to me. I’ve started creating stronger boundaries with people who I was lax with before. I’m in the process of letting go of some things that I know aren’t in my best interests. And I’m trying to not only face my disappointments, but consciously looking at how to fix them.
I’ve given myself permission to stop doing things I don’t like–I’m not posting on TikTok mostly because I really don’t like TikTok, I’m letting myself disappoint others by focusing on what’s best for me, and basically I’ve given myself permission to be self-focused. And everything–all of this–is what I need to recover from the past year. Sometimes, you have to draw inward and listen to your own truth to avoid walking somebody else’s path.
I’m looking at Litha–the Summer Solstice–as being a transition point, and I’m gearing up for it. I want–at the best–to create the year ahead to be one of my best years yet, and–at the least–better than last year.
So that’s where I am. How are you, peeps? What are you doing for yourself?