Well, it has been a while since I have talked about my allergies and my diet. I’ve been having a lot of sporadic minor reactions, as I have been trying out a few of the foods I am intolerant to to see if my body has adjusted toward I can eat them. I can eat soy again in limited quantities, but I discovered that sunflower butter is totally out of the question. Once again, as soon as I tried it I bloated up, my asthma increased, and I had the stomach ache from hell for two or three days.
The last time I had a major reaction was some weeks ago — about two or three months. And I wasn’t sure what caused it although I suspected strawberries might be a factor, but I had eaten them with something else so wasn’t sure which item it was. This happened a couple times.
Now, my mother was anaphylactic to strawberries, and my sister is anaphylactic to strawberries so I have been very cautious with them because I have suspected a reaction for some time. I didn’t test reactive to them a few years back, that’s no guarantee given my body and my history. So, last night I decided to give them a trial run.
I hadn’t eaten anything for a while, and hadn’t eaten anything during the day that would cause a reaction. I felt fine during the day. I bought organic strawberries and washed them very carefully. I ate some. Immediately my mouth started feeling weird, my lips started tingling, and my body started itching even though I didn’t see a rash. I decided to see how it would go, and about twenty minutes later—by the time my workout partner got there—I was starting to get that spaced out feeling that leads into a panic attack that I get with certain reactions.
Jo took one look at me and said “Take your Benadryl now.”
As I stood up I realized I should have probably taken it right when the itching for started. I was dizzy and lightheaded. So I took a good dose of Benadryl and Jo brought me some lotion from my bedroom, which I started using to soothe my skin, instead of scratching. Luckily, the Benadryl calmed the panic attack, although I was still spaced as hell. Obviously, I did not work out.
Slept heavily and when I woke up this morning, everything felt a little bit off kilter and has all day long, but that’s common after a reaction. The itching has subsided for the most part although I have blisters inside my lip, which aren’t any fun. And I am bloated as hell — another delightful reaction I get from allergy and intolerance issues.
Oddly enough the night before I ate the strawberries I had an allergy-anxiety dream. The dream was a direct warning to trust my instincts and not to mess around when I noticed something going on.
Which brings me to my point of: DO AS I SAY, NOT AS I DO. But I’m going to really work on it. It being: When I have a reaction, I need to immediately deal with it.
I will not as sit around waiting to see how it goes. I’ve been fighting this tendency since childhood. Most of you know I had a rough childhood, and I was allergic to a number of things and foods from birth. My stepfather believed it was all in my head, even though we had the results on paper, and he would make me eat the things I was allergic to. Yes, he was that cruel and stubborn. But the result of growing up with that is this: Sometimes I don’t even trust myself when I’m having a reaction. I will wonder if I am exaggerating, when I clearly am not. That’s why I waited so long in 2012 to get to the doctor and was so messed up from that. (Reminding you of what I looked like at that point here.)
So one of my goals is to TRUST MYSELF AND MY INSTINCTS.
And right now that means that I am going back to a very basic allergy diet for six weeks, one that my doctor has me follow every time I have a major reaction in order to clear out my system.
This is a never ending labyrinth it feels like, every time I turn around something triggers me off. But I try to remember there are a lot of people who have allergies a lot worse than I do. And I have an EpiPen in my purse and one by my bed, and I have plenty of Benadryl and it’s okay to use it when I need it. So for the next six weeks I will be eating very low impact foods for my body — mostly meats and poultry, a few vegetables that are low reaction for me, a few fruits, limited rice and rice products, a little maple syrup for flavoring or sweetening. At least I still get to have my caffeine, with unsweetened rice milk.
And a note: I appreciate all of your ideas, but please—my doctor and I have been working on this issue for years, and as we find our way through the labyrinth that is my very odd body, I’m not asking for or entertaining suggestions for trying new products or this or that…seriously—one size does not fit all.
So today has been very unproductive in many ways, but it always is when I am recovering from a major reaction. Benadryl hangovers leave me feeling off kilter, but thank gods I can take that medication — there are so many I can’t. Right now I’m just grateful for that.
Thankful your workout partner got there when they. Hope you are fully recovered. Blessed be
Wishing you speedy recovery and healing energy!
Hate allergies, and I’m like you in that when I’ve had a good period of time since last reaction I have to try something, and most often suffer for it. Thank all the powers that be that they invented Epipens! Still wait forever to use it though, and need to react faster. Here’s hoping we both quit being so stubborn about reacting fast enough, and that you get better fast! You are MUCH more allergic than I am, and I REALLY want you to stay healthy and writing those great books!
Hope you get back to yourself soon. My great-niece, Melissa, is allergic to 45 different foods – she has been dealing with this since she was small – thank the Goddess, her mother has always fought for her, and her University has a great nutritionist who helps with her issues.
That’s a LOT to deal with. I feel for her.
I toootally hear you about not trusting your own instincts.
I was recently diagnosed with migraines – apparently I’ve been having them for 30 years but b/c they’re not the “classic” migraine I just thought they were “bad headaches” and that I was a wuss.
One good thing that’s come from the dx is that I try really, really hard now to ignore the voice in my head that says, “Oh you’re just overreacting.” I’ve modified my diet some which has helped and I take medicine early and often and that helps, too. Like you, I’m grateful that there’s medicine that works (and, Benadryl knocks me for a loop, too, fwiw).
All in all:
– I’m sorry you’re going through this
– I wish you a speedy recovery and a peaceful few weeks on this diet
– trust yourself (I tell myself that a lot, too although I phrase it a bit differently)
– good luck and feel better soon!!
Thank you!
For me, it’s meds…for my late husband, it was foods…very similar to you…he’d get very angry with me when I caught him trying to sneak fresh fruit, saying a little taste wouldn’t hurt…well, it did so, chastened, he’d back off, until the next time. You know your body so just be very mindful. Take care of yourself, kiddo!
I can empathize on your allergies. Some members of my family have them, but none as bad as yours. Please only eat foods that are safe for you. Did not like the looks of you after the reaction. Too painful to look at, but much painful for you. Take care of yourself and get better.
Once I know something’s off the list, I almost always KEEP it off the table. Once in awhile I slip, but I do try not to.
So sorry you’re having such a bad time with your diet. I can empathize with you,my son, from a baby until a few years ago, would have an allergic reaction to all types of things. As a baby, plastic toys! He grew out of some allergies but in his teens he took the allergy testing and was able to take shots that have
worked miracles. I hope you feel better soon and follow that diet please.
Holy cow! I can’t imagine what a pain in the ass having the allergies that you have. I had a procedure yesterday, and when I got back to the room my mouth got dry and my lips were numb and tingling and I have been itching ever since. To go threw that all the time must seriously suck. I hope you get feeling better soon.
Really glad Jo was there to recommend the Benadryl! & a virtual powpow to that idiot of a stepfather.
I offer sympathy for your condition & hope that you will feel better soon !!