Hey peeps, I’m finally back on my blog! It’s been a rough past 10 months and I had to let a lot of stuff go by the wayside during that time. I love keeping up with my blog, but unfortunately it just didn’t happen especially during the past few months. I don’t want to rehash everything that happened, but losing two kitties, almost losing a loved one, and the stress from increased reactions (which happened because of the increased stress so it’s a circular argument happening in my body) made the past year a mud pit but I had to slog through, one step at a time.
But, I think — knock wood — things are starting to even out. For one thing, I have made a number of decisions to help facilitate a calmer time for the second half of this year. I can’t control everything, but I’m going to focus on what I can control.
As I said in my video the other day, I am taking a social media break except for YouTube until at least the end of June. That will give me time to focus more on my blog, my YT channel, and most importantly — my work and my health. I’m one of those people who gets caught up, spending hours on social media, doom scrolling. And that sure doesn’t help the stress levels for me. I finally had to convince myself that after I do what I can to make a difference, I have to just let everything go. It’s really hard for me to do because I’m very vocal and very volatile, and I want to make a difference in the world. But stewing over events isn’t going to do much.
I have ended up in a deep MCAS flare right now. I’ve been having worse reactions, more frequently and I know stress has a lot to play into it. So I’m trying to focus on my health and my work, and finding joy in life.
Changing up my office helped in many ways. I cleared out a lot of old files, and in doing so, I let bits of the past go. And the new furniture, because of the color, has brightened up the room so much. If you watch the video I put out the other day — My New Office — you can see how different it looks then in my other videos from before. It’s open and airy and I have a tremendous amount of art up for inspiration. It feels so good and I love it.
I’ve needed the past few months to heal from the immediate trauma of losing my Caly. It’s hard to believe that it’s been five months now — almost six — since we lost her. In some ways it feels like yesterday. While we blessed to have Bridget and Apple, and our two new babies Ellie and Kirsi, all loving balls of fluff and love, I’m still brokenhearted over losing Caly.
I shut down my patron page and I’m going to be moving a lot of what was there back over here to my blog so everybody could see it. I appreciate the support that I got from subscribers, but it just didn’t feel like a good fit for me and I tried three times. And the page just wasn’t growing, so three times the charm, or three times—time to say no. And it wasn’t a charm.
I start writing the rest of Weaver’s Web next week — I’m taking the novella that I wrote for the aged to perfection anthology and expanding it to a full novel. I will be moving the release date ahead a few weeks, so don’t be surprised by that. I’m super excited to get back to January’s world!
With the way everything got clusterfucked in my life, I got so behind. But I have revamped my schedule and am ready to go. I’ll be writing a lot of the paranormal women’s fiction this year. I will be writing a second Night Queen novel, however it will come out sometime around early January.
I’m moving more towards the paranormal women’s fiction because, bluntly, sales are so much better and I need to pay my mortgage AND put money in savings. But don’t worry, I’ll still be writing some urban fantasy—probably two books a year.
As for the Hedge Dragon series — I don’t know when I’ll emotionally be able to write in it again. As I said before in some of my videos, I got writing the series entwined with Caly’s death, because I was writing it while she died and the two got mixed together in my mind. It was to the point where I could barely make myself sit down at my keyboard.
This is a long blog so I think I’m done for now, but I’ll be back on the blog regularly in the coming months. Bright blessings, and thanks to all my readers for sticking by me.