I just want to sit and eat cookies. And watch movies. And play games. I’m tired. I am sad because of David Bowie and Alan Rickman–two great talents in one week. I can’t help but thinking, boy a lot of celebs who are 69 years old are probably a little nervous right now…seems to be this week’s ‘you’re done’ age. Then I think that’s a horrible thing to think, but my mind went there anyway.

I’ll be 55 this Sunday. Most people never guess it, which is just fine by me. The number itself isn’t so bothersome to me, but the feeling of ‘I have so much to write, stories to tell…’ gets more pressing every year. I have to make my peace with the concept that I’ll probably never get to tell half the stories I want to. (No, that is in NO way a hidden comment about my health…just the reality of the way my mind works…if I live to be 90, I’ll still probably be going “BUT I HAVE ANOTHER IDEA”…).

Feeling a bit melancholy. And I hate waiting. I’m waiting on several things that could mean quite a turn in my life–good if they pan out–but there’s nothing I can do to hurry them along. And we’re waiting on recruiters to get back to Sam about jobs. And it feels like everywhere I turn it’s “Hurry up and wait”…I am not a patient person, Universe! I do not deal well with impediments to my progress!

Blah blah blah…I am whiny, today, peeps. I’ll try to be less whiny next time. I can’t promise, but for now…it’s back to work on the book that will not end but needs to now/soon/two weeks ago.

Here’s a kitty picture because…cats.

Caly laying on top of Brighid
Caly, who has absolutely no sense of proper boundary etiquette at all.
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  • 01/17/2016 at 1:31 pm
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    Happy Birthday, Yasmine! I hope your day is wonderful.

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  • 01/17/2016 at 2:02 am
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    I totally agree with the shock of 2 great British artists in one week. I keep waiting for the third, because things like this always come in threes. Just pamper yourself a little Yasmine, and I hope that we both live to over a 90 and I can read a more countles more stories by your hand.

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  • 01/15/2016 at 7:17 pm
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    Hopefully, things will turn around soon. Hold your fur-babies and Sam extra close.

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  • 01/15/2016 at 5:56 pm
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    I’m having a whiney week, too. Two personal losses as well as all the recent public ones have made me tired. It will get better. That’s the ebb and flow. I look forward to as many new stories as you’re able to tell us.

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  • 01/15/2016 at 1:56 pm
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    Cloudy winter days don’t help those kind of days either

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  • 01/15/2016 at 12:38 pm
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    We all have those day. All you can do is wait for it to pass. I had one earlier this week. Today, I forced myself to go work out & I feel better. Go figure! I hope you get the news you are waiting for soon. I’m in a “waiting” time also.

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  • 01/15/2016 at 12:35 pm
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    We all deserve to have time to just feel sad and worry. Your Caly and Apple and of course Sam can all help you perk up through them just being there. Sometimes when I’m down like this I try to list what I have to be thankful for, while holding my cat in my lap and it really helps. Our cat Rudy says naturally – purr therapy always works! I hope it does for you.

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  • 01/15/2016 at 8:46 am
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    If anybody says they have no whiny days, they’re lying! We all do and usually for good reason.
    My favorite prayer: ” God, grant me patience NOW”!
    Yes, we are losing too many people and sadly, we’ve done it to ourselves in the name of progress. I firmly believe we damaged our environment with all the things we’ve done, knowingly or unknowingly. Such a shame.

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  • 01/15/2016 at 8:44 am
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    Sending healing thoughts and hugs. I’ve been very tired also and I think it’s a lot because of losing people who were important to us, even if we didn’t know them. Rest a bit, eat cookies, hug cats.

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  • 01/15/2016 at 7:07 am
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    Whine away! I’m also pretty impatient. I usually try to distract myself when that happens but I’m not always successful. I hope you get great news soon!!

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  • 01/15/2016 at 5:29 am
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    Everybody deserves a whiny day! Lol i am heartbroken over David Bowie and Alan Rickman as well. Alan will always be my Proffesor Snape and Sheriff of Nottingham and of course David Bowie will always be Goblin King. Lol they were two great and talented people. Thar world seems a little less bright now that they are gone.

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